I’m new to The Secret. I started reading it three weeks ago, and yesterday, I also bought The Power.

I bought The Secret in May of last year and was encouraged by a friend. I read a few pages and then gave up. It did not make sense to me at the time.

Then, a few months ago, after a year of negative thinking, not getting the job I wanted, financial struggles, and feelings of disconnection from my family and boyfriend, my wonderful boyfriend and I broke up. Cue 3 months of devastation.

Lots of things were still up in the air. I was hurting, and I was still job hunting. Negative thoughts abounded.

Then, one day three weeks ago, I was cleaning my room and found The Secret. I read it in one sitting and have kept it in my handbag ever since.

I feel incredible. I created a vision board and bought a box to put letters of love from friends, family, and my ex in it as a reminder of how great I am.

I have been trying to attract my ex back into my life. I was starting to question the amazing feeling of power and love I had and if they were good enough. I tend to be quite impatient.

I threw my hands in the air last night and said, ” That’s it. I’m obviously doing it wrong. I can’t attract texts from my ex when I want them. I can’t attract the job I want quickly enough. This is a test, Universe. If I see yellow flowers on the way to work tomorrow), then okay, the law of attraction does work. If not, well!”

Then I focused on yellow flowers in my mind. I saw them popping up everywhere. Then I went to sleep.

In the morning, I got ready for work and walked along the street I had walked along the evening before. Yellow flowers were everywhere, in every garden. I started to feel weird. I got to the end of my street, and I said to myself, “Okay. If I see one more yellow flower, I’m not going crazy.”

Beside the train station, growing in a crack in the sidewalk, you guessed it, there was a little yellow flower.

I felt dizzy but excited. Then I get to the office I’m temping at. What is on the desk? A vase of fake yellow flowers.

Okay, Universe, I get it! I believe.

I believe I can fall in love again with the ex I drove away. I believe I will get that job I had two interviews for. I will be patient. I will love, send out positive vibes, and visualize.

These books are challenging me in a good way. They have tilted the world as I know it on its head. Things I used to scoff at, well, now I know they are real. And that is scary for a cynic like me. But I’m hopeful because I am young and the Universe is old. I guess I found my faith again. And it is exciting!